How was your Day? --Nabi's Progression

[Genjuu Mugon]

Sorry for the lack of format and comma's in this one but It is needed. Since what has happened I thought it would be appropriate

Monday June 2, 2008 11:52pm
Today was awful, just awful
“I would risk my life to save anyone” I don’t know how much he really meant it.
At noon we were at my locker when Kyon ran and shove me and the person I was talking to (I don’t remember who though) over on the ground. All I hear was a loud “Ka-re-lunk-kann” and someone screamed. When I looked up Kyon was on the floor At first I thought it was all a joke until I saw the ceiling fan cover on the ground by his head. I went and knelt beside him and gently shook him. He was not moving. I don’t know why but I burst into tears and I could not stop crying. I don’t really know what was happening after that I think an ambulance came to get Kyon. Before I knew it I was in Shichi’s car crying all the way. I don’t know who was in the car with us but I think I was crying on someone shoulder. Maybe it was Ichi as she was with us later. When we got to the hospital we were made to sit outside the room they took him to. Ni’s Mother saw me as she was at the hospital for some reason. She asked me what was wrong even though I had stopped crying I was too traumatized to say. Shichi explained the situation but I don’t even remember what he said. Later Kyon’s father Came. A doctor came out and gave us some pleasant news. I remember what the doctor said it was “He is alright. Whatever landed on his head did flat and it seems that all he might have is a slight concussion. He might need to stay in bed for a while to make sure nothing is wrong because he also hit his head on the ground as well. He also will have to stay the night.” Kyon was transferred to a normal room and we were allowed to be there. I sat beside Kyon’s bed and watched him as he was asleep. I think Ichi was there but I’m not sure because she did not say anything. There might have been other people there but I don’t remember. Eventually my mother came and took me home. I’ve calmed down now but I don’t think I can sleep tonight. Writing this makes me feel better though

[Xyw13]

Cool again... I like more this short stories rather than those long ones...

[Genjuu Mugon]

This is a side story of Kyon reviewing his day.

A day in the life of Kyon

Augh, way to ruin such a pleasant situation… Yeah Yeah I hear you. I said be quiet alarm clock!
You must be a maroon.
Time to get ready for school. I wonder what I’ll wear today?
What does it matter? It’s not like people are going to care anyway.
I suppose that’s right. So I’ll just wear whatever then.
Well, time to get out of bed.
Why bother?
Hmm is there anything to eat? No.
A person like you does not deserve to eat.
Oh there is some bread so I’ll have that.
I doubt father is here and there is not enough time to do anything so I’ll just wait for the bus to come.

Middle seat on the right side, my usual seating.
Why would anyone care?

“Goodbye bus, hello school! Begin episode” Even I don’t know why I say Begin Episode everyday
Oh, looks like I am caught up in reviewing my thoughts from the running’s of my morning.


I decided to make my way to the cafeteria as usual. When I got there I was welcomed by an unusual sight. Nabi was already there and it looked like something may have been on her mind.

“Something on your mind? Your face seems all awash in thought”

Nabi looked surprised as if she was startled to my presence. She then began to do that index-finger pushing against the other index finger thing you see on anime. She had her head looking down at her fingers while she did this.

“Uhhh… it’s nothing” She said in a hurried tone

It seems she would not be comfortable telling whatever is upon her mind at all. I can only imagine what it is about but I will not press. Besides, I doubt it would be about me anyway.
Why would it be?

“Whatever it may be Nabi, I bet it will all work out”


“I sure hop- wait! How could you tell?”

I would imagine that you acting in such a manner would be the first clue but anyhow. What’s this though? You’re blushing? Huh, I now wonder what may be going through your mind. But that will have to go unanswered as that is your business and not mine.
Quit thinking about what your thoughts were and just review the day idjit

“Just a lucky guess” I said coyly

This apparently made her distracted from her problem as I had wished.

“Oooo~ you’re teasing me.” She said with her very cute frustrated face

“Not at all. I’m sorry I did not mean to make angered I just wanted to…”

“What?”

“To see if I could make you forget about your problems for a moment”

I guess that I made her feel better as she silently smiled but I could tell that the something was on her mind still as she returned her gaze to the ground when I said that to her. But she picked her head up and said this:


“Thanks Kyon, I feel better”

And there goes that nickname again. Man, I know it better than my own name. Though, it runs off the tongue better than my name. Cecil sounds so boring compared to that anyway. It’s quicker and faster but I cannot help shake the feeling that I will find out that my colleagues are Time travelers and stuff if they keep calling me that. Well, at least they talk to me.
Because they feel sorry for you.

“Uh… Kyon can I ask you something?”

I wondered what this was about. I thought that perhaps it’s about what is plaguing her mind. It’s best not to think about it too much though.

“Can I… Will you…” It seems she was struggling to ask

“Nabi If you don’t want to say it, you do not have to do it”

“But I want to”

I then came up with a good idea and I put it into motion.

“Well you can write it on this piece of paper if ye’ wish”

Nabi silently nodded her head. She wrote something down, folded the paper and passed it to me; only to snap it right back and scribble out what she had wrote and then rewrote something. I don’t know what she had wrote before but this time it said “Let’s go to the park after class”
I wonder why she would bother just to say that on the paper? Mayhaps she wanted to say something else. Well I have the papers so I can find out soon.

“Now give it back” She said as if realizing my intentions

“Why?”

“Because you are smart enough to find out what I wrote first. Anyway please give it. Please~”

I did give it back. I guess I was being a little selfish there anyway. If she did not want to tell me what was written then it is not my business. Perhaps it was a mistake.
I’m surprised how much she expresses herself these days. Before she just kept to herself in the corner but now she is sitting with us and clearly having fun. I remember I sometimes I would sit with her before, whenever I wished to. I just would sit down and eat my horridly small lunch with her. She would not talk to me at all, but, I guess I was not speaking to her in the first place anyway.
Idiot, why would she want to talk to you?
I don’t think she was annoyed by it so I just kept doing it. It was not very often though. But now it’s different. We meet up each school day and talk as we both wish. She now will talk to me but it seems recently that she has something on her mind. Though I cannot tell what that may be.
You just are too stupid to realize or consider anything.

Well here comes Ichi, with San and Shi. Oh and here comes Shichi with Hachi and Go.

[Genjuu Mugon]

I spent the rest of the morning as any other. When it came time for homeroom I went and when it came time for first period I went back to the cafeteria and sat alone; like I always do. I don’t think Nabi Knows where I am in the morning… until now. Looks like she spotted me on her travels. Oh I must quit switching from past to present tense.

“Oh Kyon! Is this where you are every morning?” She said to me while giving me a hug as I sat.

I silently nodded. I wonder why she and Ichi hug me. Maybe it is because I am their friend? I don’t know, I’ve never been hugged much. But now I am hugged every week day as a sort of greeting or farewell. I don’t know, I don’t know. Oh well it’s best not to think of things too grossly. It leads to unpleasant thoughts.
Perish.

“Penny for your thoughts?”

“Just thinking”

“About what?”

“Just how I interact with you and others”

See the definition for: Pathetic
She left at that as she silently took a chair and placed it so it was to my left. She then pulled out a patterned notebook and opened up to a new page. This is her notebook she pulls out regularly.

“What is that?”

“This is my notes”

“Notes? For what happens through the day?”

“Keen as usual”

It seems she writes what she thinks as memorable from each day. Wait, does that mean I’m memorable?
Don’t be ridiculous.
But that still does not explain why she chose to sit beside me. She could be doing this elsewhere and she would enjoy it more since I would not be there. I just ruin things.

“Kyon…”

“Yes?”

“Don’t think that it you are ruining whatever I am doing because I know you are. Don’t, it makes me sad”

I decided to say nothing.
How did she know? I am pleasantly surprised at her actions sometimes. However I wonder why she would say it. More so, I wonder why I could not say anything.

“You were weren’t you? Oh Kyon you of all people should know that is not true”

I don’t think I do. I really believe it Nabi, I do.

“Kyon, you make this morning all the more pleasurable because you are here”


“Why?”

“Because you… because I… well just because that’s why!”

I know she wants to say something else but it seems she is picking over her words for some reason. What that may be is none of my business.
We continued to sit there until the bell for third period rang. Nabi walked with me as her class is close to mine. We or rather she parted with that nice smile of hers while I bumbled away.

Third period was as uneventful as it usually is. I sat in the middle of the “U” shaped table assembly and I listened to the key notes that we needed for the book we are reading. I do this out of fun because I already know all the key points needed. I more so just think within my head as I do often and muse over those thoughts as well.

Noon soon approached and with it came the usual banters. I first spoke to Shi as it seemed she was undoubtedly cheery. It seems she got a cat and apparently she loves cats. When in this conversation I was interrupted by Ichi trying to get my attention. This pan out as expected as she said something that piqued upon Nabi’s nerves for some reason and they began to bicker. I wonder why this is a such a common sight with these two? It’s not like they have anything to argue over. It’s just me.
And there is nothing noteworthy about you at all

“Kyon you don’t like being called hers do you?” Said Nabi with a concerned face.

“Of course he does!” chamoured the now pouting Ichi

I decided to stay neutral. I thought it would be best
You just don’t want to think about it
I don’t. I don’t think about things like that. I don’t know I just don’t know anymore. Whatever I think does not matter anyway. It’s not like I am really loved by anyone.
Correct for once

Anyway, noon progressed as any other. Nabi gave me another lunch that she made. I’m not going to bother with the rhetoric’s on this one. I mean rhetoric’s in terms of questions though.
No one cares
But she tells me that she gets up in the morning to make me one of those. Every day in the past little while has she given me one. I would refuse if she was giving me her lunch so she may not eat. I tell her that she does not have to make one but she only responds with “But I want to”
Her efforts are a waste upon the likes of yourself.

Afternoon Nabi and I made our way to the park as she wished. When we got there I did not go straight to the swings as I usually do when I arrived there. I sat by this rather nice tree that we are so wont to sit under. Nabi brought out some of her tea and served me some.

“You spoil me Nabi, I don’t deserve your kindness at all”

“Nonsense, of course you do. You’re such a nice person Kyon but it seems you don’t do anything for yourself. This is my way of saying thank you”

“But you could be sharing this with someone more important than me”

“Kyon, stop talking like that. I don’t like it”

“But I-”

“Stop, you are as valued as any other person by others. You are no less important than anyone else. But when you constantly tell yourself that you are inferior it makes me sad. You’re not, you’re not. And if you are not valued by others or even yourself then you are at least valued by me. This should sound familiar to you; this is what you told me one day.”


I did not respond. I was caught in that which I have forgotten to follow. I have been so caught up that I… well I just have been cruel to myself. I realize just now that I have been putting myself down and thinking it was true. I am indeed the same as any other. I guess my doubts of myself are too controlling in my life. I will do as she says and try to value myself.

To continue though, she became upset. I guess she thought it as too sad and I guess it is. She began to sob as we sat there. I had to do something, because of me she was feeling this way. I want her to be happy. I did the only thing I could then. I extended my arm and wrapped it around her shoulder and told her:
“I will do my best so cheer up. You deserve to be happy Nabi.”

That stopped her from sobbing and I was glad. After that we stayed under the tree for a while, looking up towards the clouds that we could see. Time seemed to pass all the more slowly then. But eventually we had to back to the school for the busses for home. We left each other’s company with her giving me another hug with her saying the line “Thank You”
On the bus I pondered overall that had happened today. Indeed I have just got off the bus right now. On that bus ride I realized that I am indeed the same as any other. But…
I think as long as I can make others feel joy that is all that matters, even if it’s at the expense of
my own. So I will get rid of these negative thoughts I have of myself completely. I will do it for her, as this will make her happy.
Let’s hope I may be able to do it.
But as I take off my shoes and rise to my room I guess this will be the end for now.

[Genjuu Mugon]

Tuesday June 3, 2008 7:49pm
Today brought some happy news.
Kyon is all right… but… now he is at my house. I guess I should explain.

Last night I could not sleep much so when it came time to go to School... I did not bother and I went to the Hospital with my mother instead. When I got to Kyon’s Room he was being lectured by a Nurse not to get out of bed as he was ordered.


Nurse: “Stay In bed!”
Kyon: “But I have to get to school.”
Nurse: “You’re supposed to stay in bed unless necessary. You’re not allowed to walk around for a couple days.”
Kyon: “But I’ll miss class”
Nurse: “Just do as you’re told”

My Laughter at this alerted them of our presence. I soon got Kyon to lay down with the promise of some sandwiches I made. My Mother stayed in the room when I went to the car to get them (I forgot them there). When I came back though Kyon was asleep. I sat beside his bed waiting for him to wake up but it seems like he was really tired. Soon the silence was broken when a Doctor came in the room.

Doctor: “Oh, are you the family?’
My Mother: “No, we’re just…”
Me: “I’m a friend of his”
Doctor: “Well it seems he is asleep for once. He has been causing trouble all morning I’ve heard. He is really determined to go to School I hear”
Me: “When will he allowed to get out of bed?”
Doctor: “He should stay in bed for 3 days but he has to do so at home. He will be allowed to walk around supervised on the third but he is encouraged to stay in bed.”
My Mother: “So he has to go home today?”
Doctor: “Yes, when his parents arrive he will be discharged.”

Later Kyon’s father arrived but he did not seem like he was very comfortable. He told us that he could be around Kyon much (To stop Kyon from getting out of bed) since he had to work and that he could not leave him at his Mothers house since she is not physically able to do so. So this is where my mother chipped in that our house was close to the hospital and that she did not mind having him. So one thing led to another and the discharge papers were made with the notes saying he was discharged to my house.

Waking Kyon up to get him to my house was fun

Me: “Kyon-kun. Kyon-kun, Kyon-Kun. Wake up”
Kyon: “What? Am I allowed to go to school yet? Or do I have to go home now?”
Me: “Well… Your not going home. You’re going to my house.”
Kyon: “Wha? Why?”
Me: “It’s Because my house is close to the Hospital and it seems that because you will not stay in bed your parents will not be able to look after you.”
Kyon: “Can I eat first?”
Me: “I have those sandwiches; you can eat them in the car.”
Kyon: “Can I have some now?”
Me: “Later”

Just then a nurse came in with a wheel chair for Kyon that he gracefully declined with a "I'd rather walk" So I had to hold his hand so the nurse would let him do so.
Though, when we were waiting in the car for my mother to return from the hospital (she forgot something) Kyon fell asleep with his neck in an awkward position. So he would not strain his neck I put his head on my shoulder.

When we were driving home:
My Mother: “My don’t you look happy”
Me: “Better than him straining his neck”
My Mother: “I could swear it’s something else”
Me: “Stop or you’ll wake him up”
My Mother: “Just saying~”
Me: “Quit teasing me!”

That woke Kyon up but we were nearly home then so it did not really matter. When we got home we put Kyon in my room since we do not have a spare room. He went right to sleep when I called Go to tell him where Kyon was only to have Ichi scream into the phone yelling at me when Go told everyone.

Soon Shichi came with Go, Shi, and a haughty Ichi in tow. Shichi Brought Kyon’s Things that were left at school yesterday while Shi and Ichi went to my room to see Kyon. When In my room Ichi keep on looking around my room as if to see if I had all the materials needed. Then, after she calmed down we brought in a couple chairs and we just sat around the bed. After a while would on whisper “See My Pantsu?” and what not in his ear so she could harass him in his dreams as well. Every time she did this I kept on trying to quietly tell her to stop that. Kyon eventually woke up again before it was time for the four to leave back to school. He said hello and all that but I made Ichi leave when she went to her normal teasing routine.


Ichi: “But I want to stay and Help my Kyon-kun feel better!”
Me: “He is not yours! And you can’t anyway, you have to go back to class.”
Ichi: “I’ll Just come after class then!”

And she did but she came alone after school, Kyon was asleep again by then. But she went to my room anyway. To prevent a some sort of awkwardness I waited outside my open bedroom door. The thing is that Ichi did not do anything. All she did was doing was sitting by the bed every time I peered in (Glad she was on the side that made her face away from the door). I think she may have been silently talking to him having a one way conversation but it was not very loud. I did hear “You’re a Lucky one” said once so I guess it was all nice things to be said.
Ichi got up and left for home after a few minutes of her own accord and was picked up by her waiting parents.
Well Kyon is right behind me still asleep so I guess he really is tired as he slept most of the day. I wonder if he got much sleep last night?
Anyway, I’m tired too so I guess I will roll out my sleeping bag and get ready for bed.

Memorable quotes from today:
Ichi: “*Giggle* he looks cute when he sleeps”
Me: “And let me guess you want to took a picur-“
Ichi: “Got a Picture of it!”
Shi: “I fess, I got one too”
Me: “…”
Ichi: “What?”
Me: “I Want copies”

[Genjuu Mugon]

Off its medication again

Shi: “YOU IDIOT! You did that on purpose didn’t you!?! You delayed the show!”
Genjuu: “Could you please stop stomping on me?”
Nanayo: “That’s enough”
Shi: “Who are you?”
Genjuu: “This is Nanayo, she is my newest character”
Shi: “And why did you make her?”
Nanayo: “I’m supposed to be a ‘Intermission Only’ character. Get used to it”
Shi: “*Pfft*”
Nanayo: “I think you’re threatened”
Shi: “I’ll show you threatened!”
Genjuu: “Well while they argue, Ni and Nabi you can do your section”

IT’S TIME FOR LOCATION MAIN STATION!
Nabi: “Hey there! Today our location is that of the park!”
Ni: “Yes the park is official second headquarters of troop!”
Genjuu: “What makes it official?”
Nabi: “Kyon christened it so after he made us take a vote on it”
Genjuu: “Good enough for me”
Nanayo: “Then it’s a duel!”
Nabi: “Are you sure they’re going to be alright?”
Genjuu: “I think they get along fine”
Nabi: “*sigh* Anyway, the park has some swings, some playground equipment, benches, fancy bike racks, and other things you find in a public park”
Ni: “Oh and there is that big tree we always sit under.”
Shi: “A Harisen? That’s no match for mallet!”
Ni: “I have a bad feeling about this…”
Genjuu: “It will be fine”
Nabi: “You know Genjuu, with the way things have been going for you I don’t think that will be the case at all.”
Genjuu: “No, no. I bet it will be all right”
Ni: “Genjuu it’s like you always say: Fate always acts on reverse psychology-”
Shi: “I’ll show you!”
Ni: “But ii always a works with Murphy’s Law as well so you can be sure this is not going to work out”
Genjuu: “My aren’t we positive. Wait, I guess that’s me not being positive.”
Nabi: “Uhh… Genjuu?”
Nanayo: "Ha! Thats nothing!"
Genjuu: “But I’m going to be an optimist on this one”
Nabi: “Genjuu, I think you should see this”
Genjuu: “What?”
*KABOOM!*
Genjuu:”Mmmmmmayyyybbbbeee this was not such a good idea”

[Genjuu Mugon]

Wensday June 4, 2008. 6:32 pm
Well today was a little more antic
This morning when I woke up Kyon was gone.
The thing is he left his messenger bag so I knew he did not go to School… I was a little relieved about that. I think Kyon realized that he was not going to miss anything in this last week of school. Anyway, Kyon came back just like the cat that came back… I tried to lecture him but he just stared at me with those eyes of his and slipped a “You look cute when you are like this” which completely flustered me.
When I asked him where he went

Kyon: “Where did I go? Outside”
Me: “I know that, but where outside?”
Kyon: “I’ll show you soon enough”

I wonder what that means


But to continue: Kyon mostly stayed put as he was supposed to. He would read and watch television. Sometimes he would write in this notepad that he had with him. But the thing he did most was sit up and look out the window.

Nobody came at noon today. We got a phone call from everyone to see what his prognosis was (I could hear Ichi is the background asking worried and also non-serious questions).

We just had our evening meal and Kyon seems to be doing as he is told.

Memorable quotes from today :
Ichi: “*in the background*Ask her if she has had her way with him yet”
Me: “NO!”

EDIT: He did it again! He got out of bed but this time he made me and my mother come with him. I tried to stop him but he was near adamant on this. Kyon took us outside behind our house. When we asked what this was about he pointed on the horizon behind us.
It was the most beautiful sunset I have ever seen in my life. The sky was full of pinks, violets and soft yellow. I never knew that anything could look so beautiful that could be seen from my yard.

Kyon: “I thought that I should show you this since you are being so charitable to me”

We watched it until the down went far enough down that the nice colours should not be seen anymore. Afterwards I snapped out of it and made him go back to bed.
Now he is back in bed like he should be. He’s asleep now and I hope he will sleep well.

More Memorable quotes from Today:
Me: “NOW STAY IN BED!”

[Genjuu Mugon]

*YAWN*

Nanayo: “Hello and welcome to Intermission Show 16. This is Genjuu and I’m his helpful assistant Nanayo.”
Shi: “And I’m lovely assistant Shi!”
Genjuu: “Ah sure, ignore what you two did last time. *sigh* Anyway today we got another dangerous great episode for you.”
Nanayo: “Yes today we will have Nabi and Ni’s section but before that we will have my section called-“
Shi: “Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait. Who said she gets a section?”
Genjuu: “Shi, you had a section so it’s only fair that the other assistant get one as well.”
Shi: “That’s not good enough!”
Nanayo: “Say, is Genjuu’s collar coming off?”
Shi: “NO! It has to say on!”
Genjuu: “It’s not really! AH! Help!”

IT’S TIME FOR EXPLANATION BASE!

Nanayo: “Thank you Voice.”

YOU’RE WELCOME
Nanayo: “Well this section is to describe some of the things you might have been wondering about. Today it’s about what happened… Quit sticking your tongue out at me!”
Shi: “Hehehe”
Nanayo: “Now I don’t even remember what I was going to say!”
Shi: “Just shows how I am a better assistant than you~”
Nanayo: “Why you…”
Shi: “HA! So you-“
Genjuu: “Now, now lets us settle this like mature persons”
Shi and Nanayo: “SHUT-UP!”
Genjuu: “At least don’t blow something up this time”


IT’S TIME FOR LOCATION MAIN STATION!
Ni: “Uhh… those two look like they are really going at it… again”
Nabi: “We should ignore them so we will not have such negative influences. Anyhow, today in Main Station we are going to talk about my room!”
Ni: “Yes, Nabi’s room. The floor is carpeted and the walls are white. It has a closet, a computer desk with an office chair, a television stand with some game systems and a couple other chairs.”
Nabi: “It also has a dresser, a bookshelf a bed and a side table”
Ni: “The bed has a couple of stuffed animals that have some sentimental value. One is which she made herself in grade seven and the other is one that-“
Nabi: “Don’t tell them!”
Ni: “Okay fine, you guys will find out soon anyway”
Nanayo: “You know I’m a better assistant anyway”
Shi: “Now it’s time for my secret weapon!”
Genjuu: “Hey put me down!”
Shi: “I call it the :3 Genjuu Mace!”
Nanayo: “That’s MY secret weapon thank you very much”
Genjuu: “How come this happens to me? OW!”
Shi: “Weapons aren’t supposed to talk”

[Genjuu Mugon]

Thursday, June 5, 2008 1:12pm
Today was enjoyable
When I got up today to see if Kyon was still in bed he wasn’t (as expected) but I noticed Kyon’s open notebook. On it I could see the line “Why would she do all this?” Seemingly his answer below it was blank. I was tempted to write something in it but I decided not to. There was also a bag that was apparently delivered by Shichi before I awoke.

I went to go look for him but he was not far. He was in the kitchen doing… dishes. After I asked him what he was doing (And was given the predictable response of exactly what he was doing) I asked him why. All he did was point behind him towards the kitchen table. There was my mother at the table, she responded with “He insisted” and resumed on eating her breakfast. He chimed in with “I’m allowed to walk around today as long as I stay home supervised” That’s when I gave up on trying to get him to stay in bed. I sat at the table and asked what was with the extravagant breakfast my mother was eating.

A plate was then placed in front or me by Kyon. On it was an omelet; it had green andred pepper along with sting beans. He then placed a smaller plate that had toast that was lightly buttered. Last of all he placed a teacup and a saucer. I still was not thinking and began to thank my mother for the nice breakfast only to be told that he made it.
Kyon then set his placed down his own plate and accessories and began to eat as well.

My Mother: “Do you cook for you family at your house?”
Kyon: “No, I just cook for myself”
My Mother: “You should, this is good”
Kyon: “Is it?”
Me: “It is”
My Mother: “Do you like to make omelets? It seems like you have made them before”
Kyon: “No, today as the first time I have made one”

Oh the breakfast was good! It was not too big, tasted well, and… well I’m surprised that he went though all that effort. But what surprised me the most was

Me: “You must eat with your family like this everyday then”
Kyon: “… No I don’t”
Me: “You don’t?”
Kyon: “No, I don’t eat with my family”
Me: “Why?”
Kyon: “Father is usually never around and mother does not eat much and is usually in bed”
My Mother: “Then you can eat with us whenever you like”
Kyon: “Th-thank’s”



I felt bad that I put him into that situation. But he said that as if it was normal for him not to be with anyone. It’s really just saddening. It makes me want to stay with him all the time.

You know what? I think I’m going to write in that notebook. Don’t care if he is awake I’m going to do it.

There I did it. I flipped to that page I saw this morning and, took his pen and wrote “Because I care”
… Not what I wanted to say but… I couldn’t
Tomorrow is the last day of classes… I wonder what I will do.

Memorable quotes from today:
Me: “Kyon, what are you doing?’
Kyon: “Dishes”
Me: “But why?”

[Xyw13]

Why are they sooooo long?