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tomdawes

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Today 12:52 PM - permalink
Meri

I'll think I'll be taking a nap and afterwards write down all my issues
My husband isn't gonna like it though
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Today 12:46 PM - permalink
Meri

That's because there's nothing left to say really
There are no options for me
I can't go on but I can't get out either
I'm going crazy...
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Today 12:35 PM - permalink
Meri

Even if I ask to see what the doctor thinks
I only go there like once every 6 weeks or something like that
She doesn't know me
The therapist only saw me like 10 times a half year too
They don't know me like my therapists in Belgium did...
And they'll think I'm arrogant and that it's a bad idea because it's me who brought it up
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Today 12:28 PM - permalink
Meri

Even if I'd do that don't think we'll be able to pay for them
Besides even between Belgium and the Netherlands there's a huge difference in offer
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Today 12:17 PM - permalink
Meri

I've tried tons of stuff
The only difference is that things are flattened out and in the beginning it helps
But in the ends stuff still builds up
And well I'm not diagnosed as bipolar
So they won't give me that specific medication
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Today 12:11 PM - permalink
Meri

I can't promise you that
Meds are just meds
They won't change a thing for me
If I'm not willing to work harder there's no use in getting new meds
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Today 12:00 PM - permalink
rjd22

Well the hackers are gone but they did quite some damage. I like 5000 visits per day.

Also I lost my job so I'm looking for work ATM.
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Today 12:00 PM - permalink
Meri

I'm a lot of things...
Autistic with high IQ, probably bipolar/borderline, genetically enforced depressed, ...

Pff dunno if new meds will help much
Besides they let me off the hook in january after my suicide attempt
If I tell them now things are getting worse again they'll lock me up again
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Today 11:37 AM - permalink
Meri

Geez you ran off already.
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Today 11:26 AM - permalink
Meri

Well my social pedagogic worker cancelled on me again
(Already the fourth time in the half year I had him)0
And that while this was my last appointment with him since he's leaving
So now I'm not sure what'll happen next
I'll probably get a new one
About the 10th one in 5 years
I just can't deal with this anymore
I'll see my psychiatrist end of this month
But I'm through
Only problem is I'm stuck in life
I can't just exit because of my husband
There's just no way I can, and I hate it
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About Me

About tomdawes

Gender

Male

Biography

21 years sober and 19 years married ... life's a bitch, but life is good [yes ... i AM an oxymoron].

Location

in a confused state of confusing confusion ...

Interests

helping ppl, driving my NEW [old] tractor, posting here, recording DVDs from tv

Occupation

ex-farmer/computer geek - now disabled [ruined back, joints, brain, uuuhm ...]

Favorite Anime

Ninja Scroll [again & again], Pokemon Movies

Anime Watching Now

Pokemon Movies, Bleach, Pokemon Battle Dimension, Bakugon, Code Geass

Favorite Anime Genre

ninja, fuedal, fantasy, magicks

Favorite Anime Studio

i still know nothing ...

Favorite Games

Dungeon Siege [noob], BroodWar, Shining Force [Sega], Missile Command

Games Playing Now

Dungeon Seige, Torchlight, Hexplore

Favorite Games Genre

RPG, Missile Command, & RTS

Favorite Game Studio

Blizzard, Gas Powered

Favorite Babe / Hunk

My wife Jewely ... till death do us part

Favorite Car

My 1977 Kubota Tractor with bucket loader

Driving in

my Kubota tractor and my Ford Windstar minivan
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if you want to know more about me .... read my intro.
or just check out my Wolf's Titanic Freeware!! thread.

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